I must've been high to ever say, "You and I.."

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Last day of secondary school,
Last time i will be sitting in that class,
Last time i will be taking the bus to school,
Not yet the last time i will be wearing the uniform,
Not yet the last time i will be seeing my classmates,
Not yet the last time i will be eating school food,
Well, soon enough.

Can't believe when we were just std5, we thought we had so many years in front of us. What was there to rush? Slumber la. When we're in form3, we can't wait for school to be over. Just dying to go home and crash on the bed. Or vice versa. Now when the time's finally come to grow up, choose that road which is going to lead you where you're aiming for. It's a big realization. We might not see each other anymore, taking separate roads and meeting new people, facing new challenges. Ah, we might not have time for each other.

HAHA KIDDING.

We're not thaaat old, first part is true though. Last part ... not so much ;D

I started my last day. When I entered my class, i thought "Wow, today alot of people showed up ... but why are they smaller than how i usually see them?" (btw i lost my specs somewhere so any face FAR away are just a mere speck with two dots.) Oh and then they started staring at me like WHO the hell's that girl? Then it hit me... My bengkak, morning eyes bulged, "Oh shit, wrong class!" I could hear their laughter behind me. Ah, damn memalukan.

So yeah (: I watched this standup comedy by this white dude on fb about The Differences Between Girl&Guy Orgasms, super hilarious! If you've a chance, MUST watch. Have to go study sejarah soon. Really soon. Memorise, memorise, memorise, memorise, oh chocolate!

...Goddamnit.

Bye, loves.

xx.

I like cute guys. Not necessarily the hottest guy, but the one that's clumsy & crazy & always makes me smile. You know what I mean? Like he might not be Abercrombie potential, but he still has all my attention. No, not in the show-offy type of way, but in the I'm-totally-cool-with-who-I-am kind of way. Like he can smile at me & I know we were meant for this, for us. It would be like, he wouldn't always know what to say & when to say it, but he would want to. Because sometimes caring enough to try really is enough. And for us it would be. He'd be spontaneous, always doing something I would have never expected would make me fall in love. The kind of guy that is so proud to be yours. The kind that has an amazing family that you feel at home with. You know, the kind of guy that is your best friend, but the only person you could ever see yourself with at the same time. He would love me for everything I am, for real, not just say it like everyone else always does. He would mean it & I wouldn't have to think twice to know he was telling the truth. And maybe we'd be exact opposites, but that what would make our relationship great. Working at it. Because without the work, it wouldn't really be worth it.



:)
xxx

25 random things

Of course there's more than 25 but I don't have the time of day to think of all of them. (: I copied all this from facebook. So it's here AND there.

1. I sang to my ex on the phone before.

2. I made that same ex cry on the phone. I heard him sniffing when he denied it.

3. I had a dream that i was butt naked and walking around my school, trying to find clothes. (srikl) It still haunts me.

4. I talk to myself when I'm alone at home. No kidding. I find it weird too then i end up telling myself out loud that I'm weird.

5. When I was a baby, I thought I could walk through glass doors. I ended up crying, on my butt. And with a bump on my head.

6. I was born in Jakarta, Indonesia. I'm NOT Indonesian. And I'm not your maid.

7. I'm planning to get another cartilage piercing because my tragus one on my right was messed up.

8. I eat ALL my veggies first before finishing the whole meal. Some people find it weird. (: I eat the yucky ones first: save the best for last heh.

9. I enjoy cooking for people. (: As long as you trust me enough not to burn down your house.

10. I shisha. Big deal, why does everyone have to associate it with smoking and "it's SOO wrong." I'm young, too bad.

11. I feel disgusted/hate people burping near me. You wanna burp? .. stay 5km away from me. Or at least do it where i can't hear it.

12. I want to go skydiving, horseback riding, bellydancing, ballroom dancing, bungeejumping, skiiing!, get my driving license, etc. All of them, .. next year. -.- Screw spm.

13. Fried eggs and sausages are yummy.

14. I've been single for about two years. Big whoop.

15. I like to give people nicknames and then save it under their numbers in my cellphone. 8)

16. I've never karaoke-ed before. Someone please bring me. D:

17. I broke my left arm in pre-1. So stop asking me why I've a scar there, touch it and then ask if it's still pain. -.- it's obviously not anymore.

18. I've never experienced winter, fall, autumn, nada before. Only the HOT summer. In malaysia. -.-

19. My preschool teacher's name was Puan Malina. I can't believe I can still remember her name. But I don't see her around anymore.

20. I like meeting new people. (: though maybe after this, you wouldn't want to.

21. I don't have a hollywood/japanese/korean/

taiwanese celebrity crush on anyone, like all you people. HAHA.

22. I FKINADOREWORSHIPKISSITSFEETGODLIKEMISSMOTHEREFFLOVE SUSHI. I swear I'll never get bored eating it.

23. I want to have EIGHT kids like that Octo-momma on tv. :D Just kidding! I would be insane to get a belly that humongous.

24. I'm still finding my true GIRLfriends. I'm such a noob, too many guyfriends. Only one passes as my girlfriend. But he doesn't totally understand because he does not have BOOBS. And he admits it too :D

25. My chinese name is not included in my IC. I just realized heh.

Avalanche - Marie Digby

We pose the way we wanna be seen by others, but by taking stolen shots, we capture who we really are.

Just an update on how im doing. (: they're all pictures, so .. enjoy? ;)

August 2009;

ACG+PCG2 (:
really wonderful, awesome people!

September 2009;

Katherine (:

Yes, i did it! :D (09/09/09)

October 2009;

(after i cut my long locks.)

xi ning. (:


yi xin. (: superfkinduper smart!


helmet head!
(someone called me mushroom head. D:)



arvindra. (:
my blackman; it's affection not racism. :P

John. (:

he's been pretty gay lately o.o

Adriz's birthday at Friday's.

Vicy&SiewYee. (:

Audrey&theMAXISballoon. (:

i was the only Beta among all the Alphas, lol so weird.

And then;

GRAD NIGHT. ♥

Betarians.

November 2009;

im proud of my handiwork. :D i can become the next picasso or something!

kidding kidding haha

Tried doing sepet eyes but i failed.

I already have sepet eyes. -.-

Mr Cool. 8D

All the boys and the girls they got it going on.

When the beat kicks in you feel it in your bones.

When the basement cracks and the needle drops.

You can’t turn back and you just can’t stop.
♥

SPM in twoweeksplus!

GOOD LUCK EVERYONE!

Stick your nose into that book and let your cerebrum absorb all that knowledge, heh.

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Yes i just did Bio papers.

xxx.

p.s: belly dance classes, anyone?

know a good place to go to? (:

Have you ever wondered which hurts the most: saying something and wishing you had not, or saying nothing, and wishing you had?

safia, nadine, katherine, zhi lynn. (:

shelly (:

xi ning, wan xuan, yi xin, tiffany, christabel. (L to R)

eileen&audrey (:

5Beta 08/09

Syairah (:


Random graduation night pictures above. Awesome night! Everyone looked so good, and so different. Especially the girls who dolled up so elegantly.
5Beta, i will surely miss your jakunness and spontaneous, retarded jokes! thankyou so much for the memories. thankyou to everyone i've met and known, my schoolmates, busmates, there's so many memorable times to remember and to be missed. Laughing at lame shit during classes, trying to speak chinese, taking the bus to school, sleeping in classes, sitting at the back with blackman&porkboy, etc ..ah, im gonna miss all that. Andandand, of course, the school's nasi lemak!

definitely not gonna miss wearing the unmissable, blinding orange polo shirt, waking up early, wearing school socks, .. ahhh just to name a few. :P

since i put it private, i found no meaning to update, haha my life is gonna be a total bore for the next one and a half months. (; screw spm. can't wait to go get my driving license, soon. very soon. :D

xx, good luck spm-ers.
oh yes, i cut bangs. (;

oh and;

Happy Halloween, spooks!

the 180th post and possibly the last for 2009

i've become one of those children whose parents read their blogs. the reason why and how they found out: because of the unreliable, untrustable and undeserving elder brother of mine. >:[ so i've decided to either make it private or shut it down. i prefer the latter but i dont want the efforts i've done to make this blog go to waste; so for the mean time it'll be private. (: now all i have to do is rmbr how to make it private, heh.

Hello world; ♥
Just got back from my elder's bro graduation ceremony, eyes are tired&body's asleep so i'll make this short ...



GOODNIGHT
8D

love;
bi; ♥

If you never understand her silence, you`ll never hear her words.

MERDEKAAAA, PEOPLE! ;D

omg time flies so fast! soon it's gonna be new year countdown and a whole new chapter of your life is going to start, wow. :) anyways i hope you guys had an awesome celebration; cause i did!

well on merdeka eve, went with the fam to Yakiniku in Eastern Mall. The food was delicious and fresh but small variety though. After that, met up with Praise T, Praise K and Dyshini for Dance Flick at 930pm-ish. OMG IT WAS FKIN HILARIOUS, the whole cinema was like bouncing up and down just from laughing, dont know who the hell said it was going to be a lame show lol. -.-


Then went to Republic to drink and dance, haha i've drank many times already but honestly it's my first time going to this kind of place; whatever you call it: club or pub wtv. So i felt abit noob lol but the dancing was fun! :D Left the place at abt 230am-ish, hah they were still dancingg.

Decided to crash over at my place eventhough they lived nearby. :P Got dressed to go have a morning swim; i think we took like 1/2 hour: partly because of the long wait for Praise T (ah tai). ;) Met random friendly strangers in the pool lol who invited us for partying everyday at their unit, damn fkin funny. Went back to my place abt 5am, no one was tired at all; after bathing and shit with everyone lying at their own comfort zone, one by one fell asleep at 6.

Woke up this morning with super sepet eyes at 1030ish, they went back home later abt 1120. And that was how i spent merdeka. :D Need some 40winks, heh ;)

bi; ♥